Welcome roxanesophia.
There are some very nice people who are Jws. You have friends in the sect yourself!
There are people who I miss, who are really nice. They are not all nice, and unfortunately, because of human nature, often the less nice ones, driven by ambition, get into positions where they can dominate the really nice "sheep", who like sheep follow along meekly.
If you say today, I'm not really interested, I'm not coming to the memorial, how long will it be before your friends are discouraged from seeing you?
How will they respond to that? What will happen to them if they "disobey?
This is all serious food for thought.